I have lived with passion and in a hurry, trying to accomplish too many things. I never had time to think
During that year of agony(苦恼) and the following year of my grieving, everything stopped for me. There was nothing to do -- just cry and remember. However, that year also gave an opportunity to reflect upon my journey and the principles that hold me together. I discovered that there is consistency in my beliefs, my writing and the way I lead my life. I have not changed, I am still the same girl I was fifty years ago, and the same young woman I was in the seventies. I still lust for life, I am still ferociously(残忍地) independent, I still crave justice and I fall madly in love easily.
Paralyzed and silent in her bed, my daughter Paula taught me a lesson that is now my mantra(咒语,颂歌): You only have what you give. It's by spending yourself that you become rich.
Paula led a life of service. She worked as a volunteer helping women and children, eight hours a day, six days a week. She never had any money, but she needed very little. When she died she had nothing and she needed nothing. During her illness I had to let go of everything: her laughter, her voice, her grace, her beauty, her company and finally her spirit. When she died I thought I had lost everything. But then I realized I still had the love I had given her. I don't even know if she was able to receive that love. She could not respond in any way, her eyes were somber pools that reflected no light. But I was full of love and that love keeps growing and multiplying and giving fruit.
The pain of losing my child was a cleansing experience. I had to throw overboard all excess baggage and keep only what is essential. Because of Paula, I don't cling to anything anymore. Now I like to give much more than to receive. I am happier when I love than when I am loved. I adore my husband, my son, my grandchildren, my mother, my dog, and frankly I don't know if they even like me. But who cares? Loving them is my joy.
Give, give, give -- what is the point of having experience, knowledge or talent if I don't give it away? Of having stories if I don't tell them to others? Of having wealth if I don't share it? I don't intend to be cremated with any of it! It is in giving that I connect with others, with the world and with the divine.
It is in giving that I feel the spirit of my daughter inside me, like a soft presence.
相关单词:coma
coma解释:n.昏迷,昏迷状态
coma例句:
The patient rallied from the coma.病人从昏迷中苏醒过来。
She went into a coma after swallowing a whole bottle of sleeping pills.她吃了一整瓶安眠药后就昏迷过去了。
相关单词:consistency
consistency解释:n.一贯性,前后一致,稳定性;(液体的)浓度
consistency例句:
Your behaviour lacks consistency.你的行为缺乏一贯性。
We appreciate the consistency and stability in China and in Chinese politics.我们赞赏中国及其政策的连续性和稳定性。
相关单词:lust
lust解释:n.性(淫)欲;渴(欲)望;vi.对…有强烈的欲望
lust例句:
He was filled with lust for power.他内心充满了对权力的渴望。
Sensing the explorer's lust for gold, the chief wisely presented gold ornaments as gifts.酋长觉察出探险者们垂涎黄金的欲念,就聪明地把金饰品作为礼物赠送给他们。
相关单词:ferociously
ferociously解释:野蛮地,残忍地
ferociously例句:
The buck shook his antlers ferociously. 那雄鹿猛烈地摇动他的鹿角。
At intervals, he gritted his teeth ferociously. 他不时狠狠的轧平。
相关单词:crave
crave解释:vt.渴望得到,迫切需要,恳求,请求
crave例句:
Many young children crave attention.许多小孩子渴望得到关心。
You may be craving for some fresh air.你可能很想呼吸呼吸新鲜空气。
相关单词:helping
helping解释:n.食物的一份&adj.帮助人的,辅助的
helping例句:
The poor children regularly pony up for a second helping of my hamburger. 那些可怜的孩子们总是要求我把我的汉堡包再给他们一份。
By doing this, they may at times be helping to restore competition. 这样一来, 他在某些时候,有助于竞争的加强。
相关单词:somber
somber解释:adj.昏暗的,阴天的,阴森的,忧郁的
somber例句:
He had a somber
His coat was a somber brown.他的衣服是暗棕色的。
相关单词:cleansing
cleansing解释:n. 净化(垃圾) adj. 清洁用的 动词cleanse的现在分词
cleansing例句:
medicated cleansing pads for sensitive skin 敏感皮肤药物清洗棉
Soap is not the only cleansing agent. 肥皂并不是唯一的清洁剂。
相关单词:frankly
frankly解释:adv.坦白地,直率地;坦率地说
frankly例句:
To speak frankly, I don't like the idea at all.老实说,我一点也不赞成这个主意。
Frankly speaking, I'm not opposed to reform.坦率地说,我不反对改革。
相关单词:cremated
cremated解释:v.火葬,火化(尸体)( cremate的过去式和过去分词 )
cremated例句:
He wants to is cremated, not buried. 他要火葬,不要土葬。 来自《简明英汉词典》
The bodies were cremated on the shore. 他们的尸体在海边火化了。 来自辞典例句