My sister was watching me sympathetically as I burst into tears for what annoyed me. Holding my hand firmly in hers, she sat by my side without uttering（发出，作声） a word.
Willingly or not, I had been her sister for 13 years since I was 7 years old. Due to her arrival, I then childishly thought that I was thrown into a world of darkness, anger, frustration and self-pity. Once a lovely girl, I felt condemned by this fate to becoming a desolated（荒凉的） burden ---- all the adults around complimented the newly-born, charming creature while neglecting my presence.
A cloud of jealousy hung over my once peaceful heart. I muddled through each day by sharing all I had previously had enjoyed alone. And all I had to cling to was to hit her and shout at her on our parents' back.
My sister was so scared of me that each time when she was left alone with me, I could notice her trembling----and that pleased me even for years. But, I also knew that she respected me from the bottom of her heart----though I never admitted that until that day when I participated the College Entrance Examination. My parents as well as my sister all came to bolster morale for me outside the school gate. I was thoroughly prepared. I passed the line that separated the examinees and the supporters, and walked on nearly 100 meters, I suddenly heard my sister's voice:
"Your pen-box! Sister, you forget your pen-box!"
Turning back, I saw my sister's little body rushing past the security guards all the way towards me.
When she run up to me, what she heard was my sneer: "Pen-box are not allowed. I've picked out the pens."
Then she answered breathlessly: "Oh!" daring not to look into my eyes.
Seeing my sister walk out with a disappointing back, I suddenly realized that she was always waiting for an opportunity to do something for me.
Later, when I went to university in Beijing, I tasted the ache of loneliness. Furthermore, two shocks in quick succession allowed me to learn that my sister's really means a great deal to me.
The first thing was that, as Mother told me, after my leaving, my sister insisted on not moving any of my things. She even put my towel besides hers. She said, whenever she entered the bathroom, that would remind her of my smiles, my jokes, my being a patient listener.
Then came the second shock: I could not remember when I gave her a smile, when I ever told her jokes. As for "a patient listener", all that came to my mind was that my sister kept telling some trivial incidents in her school day, but I put none of them into my heart, only minding my own business. Yet as long as I felt sad, it was my sister who would sit by my side, watching over me.
This summer, my father rented a house by the Nanli Lake and took us all there for several weeks. This time, it was me who was expected to catch the opportunity to push our relationship further, and to let her know how I really felt.
The first morning, we went fishing. We stared silently at the tips of our rods, at the dragonflies that came and went. I lowered the tip of mine into water, tentatively, dislodging the dragonfly. I looked at my sister, who was silently imitating me, and yet there was even no dragonfly on her rod! Then I intentionally let her hold my rod, her eyes watching. For a while, I could experience her state of mind---she was pleasantly surprised by my behavior showing acceptance.
Being wild with joy, she finally caught two Yuenan fish, hauling them in briskly and put them in the net skillfully.
Then I had to accept that, as the time went by, my sister had grown up much more independent, being able to manage many things all by herself. But still she followed me step by step, imitated whatever I did, convinced everyone of her classmates that I was the best sister in the world. I knew that she tried her best to let me know that: she loved me.
Now I once again complained in her arms, asking for her comfort. Thinking of the past 13 years with a sister, tears of happiness poured down my cheeks. For I had always felt my sister's presence, in both heart and life. I was lucky, so lucky, for my parents had given me a gift more precious than doting on me; a gift that helps me know what love is and how to treasure it. She is the angel in my house.
相关单词：frustration
frustration解释：n.挫折，失败，失效，落空
frustration例句：
He had to fight back tears of frustration.他不得不强忍住失意的泪水。
He beat his hands on the steering wheel in frustration.他沮丧地用手打了几下方向盘。
相关单词：condemned
condemned解释：adj. 被责难的, 被宣告有罪的 动词condemn的过去式和过去分词
condemned例句：
He condemned the hypocrisy of those politicians who do one thing and say another. 他谴责了那些说一套做一套的政客的虚伪。
The policy has been condemned as a regressive step. 这项政策被认为是一种倒退而受到谴责。
相关单词：desolated
desolated解释：adj.荒凉的，荒废的
desolated例句：
Her death desolated him. 她的死使他很痛苦。
War has desolated that city. 战争毁坏了那个城市。
相关单词：jealousy
jealousy解释：n.妒忌，嫉妒，猜忌
jealousy例句：
Some women have a disposition to jealousy.有些女人生性爱妒忌。
I can't support your jealousy any longer.我再也无法忍受你的嫉妒了。
相关单词：muddled
muddled解释：adj.混乱的；糊涂的；头脑昏昏然的v.弄乱，弄糟( muddle的过去式)；使糊涂；对付，混日子
muddled例句：
He gets muddled when the teacher starts shouting. 老师一喊叫他就心烦意乱。
I got muddled up and took the wrong turning. 我稀里糊涂地拐错了弯。 来自《简明英汉词典》
相关单词：previously
previously解释：adv.以前，先前（地）
previously例句：
The bicycle tyre blew out at a previously damaged point.自行车胎在以前损坏过的地方又爆开了。
Let me digress for a moment and explain what had happened previously.让我岔开一会儿，解释原先发生了什么。
相关单词：bolster
bolster解释：n.枕垫；v.支持，鼓励
bolster例句：
The high interest rates helped to bolster up the economy.高利率使经济更稳健。
He tried to bolster up their morale.他尽力鼓舞他们的士气。
相关单词：morale
morale解释：n.道德准则，士气，斗志
morale例句：
The morale of the enemy troops is sinking lower every day.敌军的士气日益低落。
He tried to bolster up their morale.他尽力鼓舞他们的士气。
相关单词：thoroughly
thoroughly解释：adv.完全地，彻底地，十足地
thoroughly例句：
The soil must be thoroughly turned over before planting.一定要先把土地深翻一遍再下种。
The soldiers have been thoroughly instructed in the care of their weapons.士兵们都系统地接受过保护武器的训练。
相关单词：sneer
sneer解释：v.轻蔑；嘲笑；n.嘲笑，讥讽的言语
sneer例句：
He said with a sneer.他的话中带有嘲笑之意。
You may sneer,but a lot of people like this kind of music.你可以嗤之以鼻，但很多人喜欢这种音乐。
相关单词：intentionally
intentionally解释：ad.故意地，有意地
intentionally例句：
I didn't say it intentionally. 我是无心说的。
The local authority ruled that he had made himself intentionally homeless and was therefore not entitled to be rehoused. 当地政府裁定他是有意居无定所，因此没有资格再获得提供住房。
相关单词：doting
doting解释：adj.溺爱的，宠爱的
doting例句：
His doting parents bought him his first racing bike at 13.宠爱他的父母在他13岁时就给他买了第一辆竞速自行车。
The doting husband catered to his wife's every wish.这位宠爱妻子的丈夫总是高度满足太太的各项要求。
